She Wants The Z

I have to quit saying that I’m tired. I say that phrase on a daily basis. It gets to the point that it honestly doesn’t have any meaning. I usually am actually tired. I don’t get the qualified amount of sleep hours. Personally, ten hours would be perfect, but I can get by with five hours without looking like a total zombie. My sleeping habits are awful. I watch TV since I had a TV installed directly on the wall across from my bed. We have charter spectrum. My thumb hits the green ON DEMAND button and I’m gone. Lately, I’ve been watching feel good movies. I am a sucker for the ones with Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks. HBO family was featuring You’ve Got Mail at 1 a.m. one time. And of course the commercials seem to last longer than the actual segments of the movie. Stayed up until 3 a.m. on a school night, absorbing the movie that I have seen countless of times. Makes sense. I usually die a little after one in the morning. Then become alive with the light of my screen beaming on me interrupting my short blackout. I shuffle through my sheets to find the remote wanting to shut off the factor of my disappointing REM sleep. 

I also stay up doing all this school work that I should have done during the day when I have free time. But instead, I spend time watching episodes of the office on Netflix, because of course that is the real pathway to success. The thing is, I don’t have my own set of workers that can forge my homework. So my homework has to get done at some point, and that is usually at around eleven at night. What’s really unfortunate is I can’t remember the last time I went to bed before ten. I know I don’t get to sleep in. I wake up at six every morning during the weekdays. My family likes to have breakfast in the morning, together. Every single morning. I make sure to brew the coffee. Don’t expect me to function if I do not have coffee in my system. I will slowly shut down. So saying that I am tired all the time needs to stop. That means I gotta lay off the television before I go to bed and figure out my schoolwork schedule. Will this happen? Not probable. But it is a goal that has been on mind for quite some time.